Guest Blogger: Alisha Thompson
First I want to thank everyone that has written with encouragement and prayers over the last few days. Your words have meant more to me than I can express. It is amazing how much words can mean, even from those of you I have never met - thank you for taking the time to leave a message for me and my family.
Tonight we told Seth (our 3 year old) that there was no "baby in mommy's belly" and it was so sad. He said "but I was so happy, I wanted a baby" and "what happened." We talked about it for a little while and he said he was "sad and a little angry that we wouldn't be having a baby." We asked him if he had any questions, and he thought about it for a minute and said "yes, I have questions in my heart." So of course, we asked him what about...he said "dinosaurs and Wow, Wow Wubzy!" Not exactly what we were thinking but so typical for a 3 year old. He played for a minute then came and gave me a sweet hug and said that he was sorry about the baby. He asked me as I was putting him to bed if I was sad and I said that I was and he told me "that he was sad and would be for a while." I may not have all the quotes exactly right but this was such a hard ending to an otherwise good day.
I went to the doctor today and the good news is I do not have to have the D&C. Dr. Nordeen performed an ultrasound and said that I had actually miscarried yesterday and that there was no need for the surgery. I can't even begin to tell you what a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I didn't even realize that I was so stressed about the D&C until it was not going to happen.
So, Dr. Nordeen said that I will go back in two weeks and have my blood tested and if the hormones are gone out of my system and the pregnancy test comes back negative, then he is giving me a clean bill of health. He asked that I wait at least 2 full cycles before Eric and I try again...since we weren't trying in the first place...we will definitely not have a problem waiting. :)
Before I go, I want to share with you this song that has really meant alot to me over the past week. It's from Isreal Houghton and New Breed called "Without Your Grace"
"Where would I be without Your grace, Carrying me, in every season.
Where I would I without Your grace, You came to my rescue and I want to thank You for Your grace...."
This is what God has been doing in my life this week - He has carried me, rescued me and given me grace in every moment of the days. I'll probably sing it in the next few weeks because it is so powerful. The chorus says "grace to restore, grace to redeem, grace that releases me to worship, grace that rebuilds visions and dreams, grace that releases miracles..." (something like that anyway!)
I have learned that there truly is nothing like the grace of God - thank you for your continued prayers. I love you...Alisha
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